Yeahhhh...It's Over!!

Yahoooo~ exam was just over today and that's mean im done with my final year... and my PARTNER planning to have some small party to celebrate it *huhuhu* can't wait for my graduations...^_^. In a mean while, another BIG day coming soon and i have to make a GOOD planning for it. I can't wit for it too ^_^...

It Is Time~

Wish u all A Merry Christmas
May the Joys of the season
Fill ur heart with goodwill and cheer.
May the chimes of Christmas glory
Add up more shine and spread
Smiles across the miles
Today & In the New Year.

You Know Why..?

If you are perfect.You haven’t lived.You know why?.. Because you never learn anything because you are so perfect. Because you never felt sadness and rejection. Because you are perfect no one will be good enough for you. Because you are perfect I don’t want to be like you.I like to work hard for something and feel pride. Because you are perfect you wont be able to live through the things that normal human beings would. I don’t want be perfect because all these things are a part of life...

~..This means that in life we are blinded by many things especially when we love, we don’t see the truth many times, like for example the person we love hurts us and we just forget and forgive while if we hurt that person he or she never forgets and never forgives, and than arguing everyday, this has to stop but we keep saying no i love her/him…so open your eyes so you can see the truth in front of you and than once you see the truth take some actions and do something about it.

~3R~

Remember the 3 R’s..

“Respect for yourself”..

“Respect for others”..

“Responsibility for your own actions”..

The Last One..~

..Wohooo~ this is my final year and my final sem I have to fin 2 tasks and 1 thesis. huhuuu.. i think my mind gonna blow up.. To much in my mind~preparing for the mid term exam, finding the resource for the thesis..(lot of books have to read..) *sigh* i wish you were here with me at this moment~dear~ to help me do something with my stressing .. my draft not yet done.. Argggggg!! some one HELP me!!!... I also have to meet my supervisor... aisehmennnn... other than that, helping my sister for her wedding also.. cleaning the house, shopping for some stuff...aiguuuuu!! I hope this will be the last one...

~45 or 50..?

..OMG~ should I loss some weight?

10.10.2010~10:10AM/PM..

10.10.2010..~10:10am/pm

Don't Understand..Why?

I want to leave this place.. just to get away and feel the breeze upon my face and just be my self. By leaving this place behind and everything else. As I sit here in this chair, I feel this emptiness inside my soul. Praying that questions will be answered for the stories in my life untold. As I stare out my window thinking about my pass, I think of how I use to be and why it didn't last. Everyday I walk around with a fake smile.. knowing that the pain inside of me will hurt only for a little while. Sometime, when I want to crawl inside myself and die. As I insanity. because of the thoughts and criticisms of the people around me...

Those Things..

At this very moment, you may be saying to yourself that you have any number of admirable qualities. You are a loyal friend, a caring person, someone who is smart, dependable, fun to be around. That's wonderful, and I'm happy for you, but let me ask you this: are you being any of those things to yourself?

My Dear..

~have a safe journey..

I pray the Lord will sit there by your side,
And guide you as you drive along your way.
I pray His gentle spirit fills the car,
And keeps the rowdy children calm and quiet.
I pray the car performs the way it should,
And never fails you in the slightest way.
I pray He clears your mind and keeps it sharp,
And never lets you slumber at the wheel.
I pray that other drivers on the road
Will keep their distance safely far from you.
I pray the roads are safe, the bridges strong;
I pray the weather lets you drive on through.
And when your trip is over, safe and sound,
I pray that you remember He was there.

p/s: ingatlah orang yang tersayang ^_^. I'll be waiting 4 you ya..

Pray 4 You..

        Sometimes when you are busy with your life,
            And jumping frantically from place to place
            It's easy to forget about details,
            Like where you put your keys or left your coat,
            Or if your back-up copy has been made.
            And so I pray the Lord will stay with you
            And warn you when you walk in carelessness.
            I pray that He protects you from the harm
            That careless actions easily produce.
            In Jesus' name I pray for you, Amen.

Our Journey~

~My love for you is a journey, starting at forever, ending at never.


God gave us everything in pairs-two hands, two eyes, two ears…But why only one heart? Because he gave another to someone else for us to go find.. and i finally find my other heart.. ^_^

Someone told me that life isnt perfect.. then i thought about you and realized, yeah.. life is far from perfect but having you makes it a lot damn closer...

~Finally, I Said YES...

Your love is so true,
Just can’t help falling for you.
Your love shined eyes look deep in to mine,
Pull me close and lose track of time.

Love the way you’re holding my heart,
Want to jump the gun so our love can start.
Protective arms holding me tight,
Losing my mind in your power and might.

You’re the one I’m dreaming of,
Clock keeps ticking as we fall deeper in love.
With tender fingers your touch is like fire,
Sensations linger then turn to desire.

Words are easy when the language is love,
You know exactly what I’m thinking of.
I need you like water, like breath, like rain,
Need you like mercy from God and his reign.

All my life I’ve been,
Guessing who you might be.
Hoping that moment would still let me breath,
Finally found you, when you finally found me.

~..31 AUGUST 2010..~

Boy and Girl...

Girl- Talk to her

Boy- I don’t know. She won’t ever like me

Girl- Of course she will. Your amazing

Boy- I just want her to know how I feel

Girl- Then tell her

Boy- She wont like me. . . .

Girl- How do you know that?

Boy- I can just tell

Girl- Well just tell her

Boy- What should I say?

Girl- Tell her how much you like her.

Boy- I tell her that daily.

Girl- What do you mean?

Boy- Im always with her. I love her.

Girl- I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he’ll never like me. . . .

Boy- Wait. Who do you like?

Girl- Oh some boy

Boy- She wont like me either

Girl- She does

Boy- How do you know?

Girl- Because who wouldn’t like you?

Boy- You

Girl- You’re right I dont like you. I love you

Boy- I Love You too

Girl- So are you gonna talk to her?

Boy- I just did.

Coming Soon..

~When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

*handmade passing gifts*

~Dear Dad...

Dad,

Every year, your birthday reminds me

how grateful I am that you are my father.

With all that’s going on in the world today,

I’m thankful I get to watch you,

to look up to you, being an example of a good man.

What a privilege it is to observe your strength,

your competence, and your kindness.

I am so blessed to be under your wing,

your protection, your care,

learning important life lessons from you.

If all fathers were like you,

the world would be a very different

and much better place.

Happy Birthday, Dad...

from your admiring son/daughter.

Persediaan..~

..Fhewwww~ baru lepas 2nd paper. Ada lagi 1 paper. In the mean while, I'm looking forward to prepare my stuffs. Today gonna do a CITY TOUR with my sister.. The day is coming within 2 weeks and I still counting on it...^_^

~I'm Counting...

~I believe.. We all have one true love Somewhere in this world. I do.. When it seemed. All my dreams Were falling through.. That's when I found you. I believe for every heart That whispers in the dark, There's a ray of light somewhere Shining through. It was sink Or swim When the tide came in. I found myself When I found you. I found the closest thing to heaven.. Yes! in you I found the deepest love I knew..

I'm counting my lovely day a head now. at this moment, im preparing everything.. (can't wait the day to come..)

Missing..

~Aishhhh.. its been so long i haven't update my blog. So many thing I have to deal with. Im in my final year and thesis is on progress. I have to do my very best this final year.*Bless me God*.. Lot's of things happen around me this day, but i couldn't wrote it now..*later la aa* Here's some pic's of my niece. She's 2 month already..*cute ehh*.. Later la we story² again. Just enjoy this pic's ^__*

*Mum with pocoyong*..cute..

*sexy pocoyong*

Mother's Day

For all that you have given me,
I can return but love. For you
Bound up the wounds I did not see
And gave me hopes and passions new.

I can return but love for you,
Whose unmoved faith my heart did move,
And gave me hopes and passions new,
And loved me till I turned to love.

Whose unmoved faith did my heart move?
The mother of my heart, not blood,
Who loved me till I turned to love.
And I became the soul I would.

The mother of my heart, not blood,
Bound up the wounds I did not see.
And I became the soul I would
For all that you have given me.

~To My Mother Mrs Ranun Gurumong, I LOve You and May God Bless You With Happiness, Health and Everything. Im Glad You Are My Mum~

Best Mom..

For all the things I didn't say,
About how I felt along the way--
For the love you gave and the work you've done,
Here's appreciation from your admiring son.

You cared for me as a little tot,
When all I did was cry a lot,
And as I grew your work did too--
I ran and fell and got black and blue.I grew some more and it didn't stop;
Now you had to become a cop,
To worry about mistakes I'd make;
You kept me in line for my own sake.I got older, and the story repeated;
You were always there whenever I needed.
You guided me and wished me the best,
I became wiser and knew I was blessed.So, for all the times I didn't say,
The love I felt for you each day,
Mom, read this so you can always see
Just how much you mean to me.Mom, Thanks for everything!

E.N.J.O.Y~

^__^ yesterday me, omong and our photography went to the Tanjung Aru Beach. Planing to take some pic's of the sunset. Lama nda pi sana..so we all went there.. Saja-saja juga la mau relax2 dari kerja di upis kenen.. Ni ada la pic tu..yang len2 Nanti la me kc upload itu pic's kio..mau ejas2 dulu saiznya..

Welcome To Our Family..

Yeppyyyy.. Akhirnya saya dapat juga adik baru ^__^. Hehehhe its' my new niece. My sister baru sahaja melahirkan baby girl di Hospital SMC. 28.04.2010 jam 4.07pm my new niece name Nysha Alyssha Louis was born. Im so happy for them. Naik pangkat sudah jadi aunty. My brothers jadi uncle. But the most happy person is my mum and my dad. Naik pangkat jadi datuk and nenek. Hehhe.. here's some pic of my new niece.. Cute kan ^__^

~..Baby Nysha Alyssha..~

My Memory Is Fading..

~*sigh*~ I always think about what happen in my life dor me to feel like this, but I can never think of the answer. I just came back from OS. I don't know what happen this few days. Everything almost getting bad. I want and try my best to make everything right, but they keep always blame me for this and that.

It's begin since last week. I feel so bad, but its not all about my fault either. Why can they understand my situation. All those words they say hurting me so badly. Since i came back from OS, I thought everything was fine. Im sending they SMS~letting they know im home safely~. Then there you go. No replay. I try to call them as many time but the phone turn off until the early morning,I got SMS. Those words really make me cry, and I can't stop it run down.. They said they want to be alone.

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."

" Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him."

" I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"

" When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal."

" They say memories last forever. I sit here, thinking about you, and all the times I had you by my side. I remember the smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks. I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach for you, I feel you slipping away... It's like my memory is fading."

" Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."

~Im so alone..

S.I.C.K

*sigh*..after a few days 'wars' with exam, finally it's over (for this sem).. Now i can focus with my work+korean class.. but, ayaaa.. yang x bestnya im not feeling good a.k.a SICK. I dont like this. 2 more weeks mau holiday with family, Hopefully that time feel better.

Yesterday Me and my sister went to Wisma Merdeka. We are preparing for our holiday.. got new T-shirt and some other stuff..(thanks sis.. nanti I pay back after i get my G.A.J.I ok ^__^)..

Tomorrow, working lagi. Next week may be outstation again to Tambunan (project punya hal..) this time mau bawa camera la.. Last time terlupa *sigh*..

Ok i guess that all for now. Later i update again with new story to share..(need to sleep early..)

Take care~Anyong!!!

Could It Be..?

My ohh My.. last night I was in my dream land.. and guess what I dream having a twins baby girl.. Wahhh.. God Bless me..~amen!! Im not sure what the meaning of it... but 'My Jangi' wishing that it will come true..(hehhe..will see aaa...).

My Day..

My Goodness.. this few days, it was really something. Sungguh penat rasanya.. Kerja² + study for final exam + Korean class and some other thing. ~aku sungguh penat~.. sia rasa macam nda boleh tahan sudah.. tapi fikir² balik, 1 bulan saja bh... so sia try la juga ni mau bertahan.

~Hari ini lagi 1st paper untuk final exam sia.. Duii betul² nda banyak persediaan for exam. Jawab secara logik saja la. Tapi bukan senang juga, ABC kunun tapi boleh buat sia blurr juga..~buat ja la yang termampu~ Next week ada 2 paper lagi..*sigh* my head..ohhh my head.. Im so sorry... Lepas saja dari kelas Korea, my bro in lo hantar pi exam. Nasib juga la nda terlambat, masih ada 30 minit untuk rest dan menenangkan hati *fuhhhh*..~time exam 1 hour and 30 minutes..~ habis exam minta ambil lagi ~mau jimat duit bah..(^_^)~ pi lagi sana 'best spot' makan A.B.C. hehheh ngam betul la ni hari, sudah la soalan pun minta jawapan ABC, makan pun A.B.C juga..~tq..tq yang belanja itu~

..besok punya planning, mau berjalan² kunun daa kalau nda malas la. Lagipun hari Isnin sia kena ready² dan awal bangun sebab 'my bos' bawa pi Tambunan ~out station kunun~.. duii lama betul nda ikut tu jalan tau. Teringat pula masa² sekolah di Keningau dulu.. habis ja cuti, macam malas betul mau balik Keningau..but it's all about life memory as a student. ~ok bh tu~

bah..tu saja la ni kali punya cerita. Mau rehat² dulu. belum cukup rehat lagi ni dari yang hari Khamis.. See ya on the next update~~

~end of story~

Thank You..

Huuhh..what a day. Today we continue our Korean class with new chapter, revision and so on. It's a bit boring la today. Lots of bla..bla..bla..bla... Don't have the enjoyment feeling. After class, we went to Karamunsing to buy something. Fin's that one, we went home (tired..). Nda sedar pula hujan di luar. Thanks God it's raining again.. Sampai rumah rest, mandi, dinner and do important things. It's been a while 'WE' haven't talk to each other. Both of us 'masing²' busy with own things. Then I make my call..

~...Blaaaa...Blaaaa...Blaaaa.....~

..that's its. I really thank full for what you done. You did so much already...thank you again. You such a wonderful person. I don't really care what your past is or what so ever people talk about you. as long as we believe in each other. God Bless us...

P/s~ what am I talking here..? I dont even know...=_=.

Silent Mood..

*sigh...* A thunderous silence breaks through my thoughts. What was once many great ideas is now a triumph, lost.. Baffling words tumble through my mind. Reflections of darkness hover. A disturbing peacefulness beckons to me, and inside myself, I take cover. What would it be like to stay there forever? To be lost in all my cares? From the inside, looking out - I cry silent tears.. Silent words across a screen. How could they mean so much to me. I promised myself I would not cry. Then a silent tear falls from my eye. What did I do, what did I say, To make you change your mind, the day you went away. Everyday, waiting for a sign To let me know, you might still want to be mind. Another day comes and goes, I want to write, but I can't, I know...

My April~

The first of April, some do say Is set apart for All Fools' Day. But why the people call it so, Nor I, nor they themselves do know. But on this day are people sent On purpose for pure merriment. We do not ask what useful purpose the birds do sing, for song is their pleasure since they were created for singing. Similarly, we ought not to ask why the human mind troubles to fathom the secrets of the heavens.. The diversity of the phenomena of Nature is so great, and the treasures hidden in the heavens so rich, precisely in order that the human mind shall never be lacking in fresh nourishment.

April is here once again, so do my final exam. I still got 2 semester to finish my final year. *sigh*.. I cant wait to finish this. Next semester, Im doing my thesis proposal.. Im hoping that they give me the proper supervisor.. And yet I still in double trouble now thinking my Korean class and my study *sigh*.. Sometime those stuff make me really stress.. But there's nothing to regret.. Just moving forward until the end. It's my chances..It's free (Korean class only..). So why not...! As long as I have the time, this is it..!! Im thank full to my family, my friends and whoever give me lots of support during my studies. I know I can't repay to you all for what been give to me, but Im praying that all of you be blessed from above. And Im sorry to you (SOMEONE..) that I make you waiting for me this very longggg time. For sure, I won't turning back again but moving to achieve our future life.. Soon enough 2 heart will be as 1.. Thank you (^_^)...

Ommo..!!

~...what do you think..??? I just find this somewhere..


~hahahhahhahah.. I can't stop smiling..

There is so much to say..

The man of my dreams has almost faded now. The one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each woman dreams of, in the deepest and most secret reaches of her heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him if he were really here? "Forgive me. I have never known this feeling. I have lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, I failed to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way that I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say. I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you". Such would I say to him if he were really here.

If only I could turn back time..

Sometimes, I wish I could turn back time to correct the choices that I have made. But what's done is done. I now have to face the music. I have so much pain that I can barely contain myself from breaking down. I am an emotional wreck.. just an emotional wreck..

I wish I could turn back time... If I could, then you'll be the victim and I'll be the one distressing your life. If I had done this to you... What would have been your response? Would you be like me?..( Saying nothing- as eyes that say all ).. Or like yourself?..(Killing a living person).. Have u seen a dead person alive? If not... here I am, as I have no stance inside of me now. Then why do I love you?.. Why do I cry? Why is this all happening to me.. Why not you? I wish you all the misery you have caused me, I wish u all the discomfort u have put me through, I wish I could turn back time...

Make My Day...

Go ahead and make my day. Drop me a line and let me know how you're doing. I'm sometimes as slow as snail mail in getting back to you, but I want you to know that I'm glad I met you. I think about you every day, and I'm always hoping the best for you. I look forward to hearing from you. You really know how to make my day...

A Mystery..

There are nine people hidden in the picture below..

Can you find them all?

Good News...

..The bad news is that you're not feeling well, and the good news is that you'll get better soon. Never forget that good news always comes with the bad. Even watermelon seeds that can break our teeth clog our garbage disposal, and, in general, annoy us, are meant to bear lush fruit. You've had the pain, and now the melon is on the way. Does this make sense to you?...

Best wishes for a speedy recovery.

Like You..

The longer I know you, the more I'm convinced that our friendship was made in heaven. For my life has been touched and enriched by you in more ways than I can count. Just hearing from you gives me a lift that gets me through the day. And whenever life is weighing heavy, knowing that I have a friend like you, who's cheering for me makes all of my troubles lighter. And I want you to know that I appreciate you and hope that I can be as good of a friend to you as you are to me..

Someone Dear~

I'll always think of you as someone dear, someone who has always been there to touch my heart and dry each tear. If I didn't have you in my life at all, my hopes and dreams would have dwindled until they became too small to see. I can't imagine how empty my life would be without you. You helped me grow, and though it's long overdue, I want you to know. how much I care. You came into my life with sunshine to share. And I'm not too blind to see that you've always been cheering for me. You've raised my spirit and encouraged me in so many ways, that I'll be grateful to you until the end of my days. And though we're many miles apart you still touch my heart. Year after year, I'll think of you as someone dear, and as always, I'll wish you were here.

A Time For Us..

..In this current age, a time of need, for every race, colour and creed, the word recession is what i keep hearing. How we see things is just our version, whereas my sight shows me a great clearing. The creation space amongst the chaos, which is designed specifically to work in your favour, let me explain as it could change your behavior. So many of us have been stuck in our ways, doing something we say we enjoy just because its pays. When deep inside within your heart, is an idea, a dream just waiting for a jump start. A spark, a push an encouraging word, all that baby wants is to be finally heard. We all have it within and what stops us is fear, so is it possible that this could be your year? See losing your job, your safe and secure blanket, is really an excuse for you to crank it. This recession is breeding ground for your true deserving wealth. How so many feel weak and helpless with the current state, how you feel the government has taken everything from your plate, how they let us down and failed to see, how to avoid what we think is a great tragedy. Like i said before, this is breeding ground, for entreprenuers, new ideas and those downward bound. Look at yourself and increase your chance as it is possible to change your circumstance. Just as we can predict by continously eating ant excercising, we can predict our future based on what we are comparemising. What can you do to increase your chances of success? where can you go to learn, grow and digest? You hold all the answers to your current dire straights, just asking direct questions is what it really takes. So ask the question and increase your chance to control the future of your circumstance.