Don't Understand..Why?

I want to leave this place.. just to get away and feel the breeze upon my face and just be my self. By leaving this place behind and everything else. As I sit here in this chair, I feel this emptiness inside my soul. Praying that questions will be answered for the stories in my life untold. As I stare out my window thinking about my pass, I think of how I use to be and why it didn't last. Everyday I walk around with a fake smile.. knowing that the pain inside of me will hurt only for a little while. Sometime, when I want to crawl inside myself and die. As I insanity. because of the thoughts and criticisms of the people around me...