My Memory Is Fading..

~*sigh*~ I always think about what happen in my life dor me to feel like this, but I can never think of the answer. I just came back from OS. I don't know what happen this few days. Everything almost getting bad. I want and try my best to make everything right, but they keep always blame me for this and that.

It's begin since last week. I feel so bad, but its not all about my fault either. Why can they understand my situation. All those words they say hurting me so badly. Since i came back from OS, I thought everything was fine. Im sending they SMS~letting they know im home safely~. Then there you go. No replay. I try to call them as many time but the phone turn off until the early morning,I got SMS. Those words really make me cry, and I can't stop it run down.. They said they want to be alone.

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."

" Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him."

" I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"

" When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal."

" They say memories last forever. I sit here, thinking about you, and all the times I had you by my side. I remember the smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks. I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach for you, I feel you slipping away... It's like my memory is fading."

" Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."

~Im so alone..