Welcome To Our Family..

Yeppyyyy.. Akhirnya saya dapat juga adik baru ^__^. Hehehhe its' my new niece. My sister baru sahaja melahirkan baby girl di Hospital SMC. 28.04.2010 jam 4.07pm my new niece name Nysha Alyssha Louis was born. Im so happy for them. Naik pangkat sudah jadi aunty. My brothers jadi uncle. But the most happy person is my mum and my dad. Naik pangkat jadi datuk and nenek. Hehhe.. here's some pic of my new niece.. Cute kan ^__^

~..Baby Nysha Alyssha..~

My Memory Is Fading..

~*sigh*~ I always think about what happen in my life dor me to feel like this, but I can never think of the answer. I just came back from OS. I don't know what happen this few days. Everything almost getting bad. I want and try my best to make everything right, but they keep always blame me for this and that.

It's begin since last week. I feel so bad, but its not all about my fault either. Why can they understand my situation. All those words they say hurting me so badly. Since i came back from OS, I thought everything was fine. Im sending they SMS~letting they know im home safely~. Then there you go. No replay. I try to call them as many time but the phone turn off until the early morning,I got SMS. Those words really make me cry, and I can't stop it run down.. They said they want to be alone.

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."

" Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him."

" I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"

" When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal."

" They say memories last forever. I sit here, thinking about you, and all the times I had you by my side. I remember the smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks. I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach for you, I feel you slipping away... It's like my memory is fading."

" Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."

~Im so alone..

S.I.C.K

*sigh*..after a few days 'wars' with exam, finally it's over (for this sem).. Now i can focus with my work+korean class.. but, ayaaa.. yang x bestnya im not feeling good a.k.a SICK. I dont like this. 2 more weeks mau holiday with family, Hopefully that time feel better.

Yesterday Me and my sister went to Wisma Merdeka. We are preparing for our holiday.. got new T-shirt and some other stuff..(thanks sis.. nanti I pay back after i get my G.A.J.I ok ^__^)..

Tomorrow, working lagi. Next week may be outstation again to Tambunan (project punya hal..) this time mau bawa camera la.. Last time terlupa *sigh*..

Ok i guess that all for now. Later i update again with new story to share..(need to sleep early..)

Take care~Anyong!!!

Could It Be..?

My ohh My.. last night I was in my dream land.. and guess what I dream having a twins baby girl.. Wahhh.. God Bless me..~amen!! Im not sure what the meaning of it... but 'My Jangi' wishing that it will come true..(hehhe..will see aaa...).

My Day..

My Goodness.. this few days, it was really something. Sungguh penat rasanya.. Kerja² + study for final exam + Korean class and some other thing. ~aku sungguh penat~.. sia rasa macam nda boleh tahan sudah.. tapi fikir² balik, 1 bulan saja bh... so sia try la juga ni mau bertahan.

~Hari ini lagi 1st paper untuk final exam sia.. Duii betul² nda banyak persediaan for exam. Jawab secara logik saja la. Tapi bukan senang juga, ABC kunun tapi boleh buat sia blurr juga..~buat ja la yang termampu~ Next week ada 2 paper lagi..*sigh* my head..ohhh my head.. Im so sorry... Lepas saja dari kelas Korea, my bro in lo hantar pi exam. Nasib juga la nda terlambat, masih ada 30 minit untuk rest dan menenangkan hati *fuhhhh*..~time exam 1 hour and 30 minutes..~ habis exam minta ambil lagi ~mau jimat duit bah..(^_^)~ pi lagi sana 'best spot' makan A.B.C. hehheh ngam betul la ni hari, sudah la soalan pun minta jawapan ABC, makan pun A.B.C juga..~tq..tq yang belanja itu~

..besok punya planning, mau berjalan² kunun daa kalau nda malas la. Lagipun hari Isnin sia kena ready² dan awal bangun sebab 'my bos' bawa pi Tambunan ~out station kunun~.. duii lama betul nda ikut tu jalan tau. Teringat pula masa² sekolah di Keningau dulu.. habis ja cuti, macam malas betul mau balik Keningau..but it's all about life memory as a student. ~ok bh tu~

bah..tu saja la ni kali punya cerita. Mau rehat² dulu. belum cukup rehat lagi ni dari yang hari Khamis.. See ya on the next update~~

~end of story~

Thank You..

Huuhh..what a day. Today we continue our Korean class with new chapter, revision and so on. It's a bit boring la today. Lots of bla..bla..bla..bla... Don't have the enjoyment feeling. After class, we went to Karamunsing to buy something. Fin's that one, we went home (tired..). Nda sedar pula hujan di luar. Thanks God it's raining again.. Sampai rumah rest, mandi, dinner and do important things. It's been a while 'WE' haven't talk to each other. Both of us 'masing²' busy with own things. Then I make my call..

~...Blaaaa...Blaaaa...Blaaaa.....~

..that's its. I really thank full for what you done. You did so much already...thank you again. You such a wonderful person. I don't really care what your past is or what so ever people talk about you. as long as we believe in each other. God Bless us...

P/s~ what am I talking here..? I dont even know...=_=.

Silent Mood..

*sigh...* A thunderous silence breaks through my thoughts. What was once many great ideas is now a triumph, lost.. Baffling words tumble through my mind. Reflections of darkness hover. A disturbing peacefulness beckons to me, and inside myself, I take cover. What would it be like to stay there forever? To be lost in all my cares? From the inside, looking out - I cry silent tears.. Silent words across a screen. How could they mean so much to me. I promised myself I would not cry. Then a silent tear falls from my eye. What did I do, what did I say, To make you change your mind, the day you went away. Everyday, waiting for a sign To let me know, you might still want to be mind. Another day comes and goes, I want to write, but I can't, I know...

My April~

The first of April, some do say Is set apart for All Fools' Day. But why the people call it so, Nor I, nor they themselves do know. But on this day are people sent On purpose for pure merriment. We do not ask what useful purpose the birds do sing, for song is their pleasure since they were created for singing. Similarly, we ought not to ask why the human mind troubles to fathom the secrets of the heavens.. The diversity of the phenomena of Nature is so great, and the treasures hidden in the heavens so rich, precisely in order that the human mind shall never be lacking in fresh nourishment.

April is here once again, so do my final exam. I still got 2 semester to finish my final year. *sigh*.. I cant wait to finish this. Next semester, Im doing my thesis proposal.. Im hoping that they give me the proper supervisor.. And yet I still in double trouble now thinking my Korean class and my study *sigh*.. Sometime those stuff make me really stress.. But there's nothing to regret.. Just moving forward until the end. It's my chances..It's free (Korean class only..). So why not...! As long as I have the time, this is it..!! Im thank full to my family, my friends and whoever give me lots of support during my studies. I know I can't repay to you all for what been give to me, but Im praying that all of you be blessed from above. And Im sorry to you (SOMEONE..) that I make you waiting for me this very longggg time. For sure, I won't turning back again but moving to achieve our future life.. Soon enough 2 heart will be as 1.. Thank you (^_^)...

Ommo..!!

~...what do you think..??? I just find this somewhere..


~hahahhahhahah.. I can't stop smiling..

There is so much to say..

The man of my dreams has almost faded now. The one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each woman dreams of, in the deepest and most secret reaches of her heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him if he were really here? "Forgive me. I have never known this feeling. I have lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, I failed to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way that I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say. I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you". Such would I say to him if he were really here.